why?

I’ve lost 50lbs.
I thought it would be enough.
It’s not.
Now all I look like is a skinny girl who got fat instead of a fat girl getting skinny.
50lbs down. Less than two thirds down.
20lbs of disgusting, ugly, shameful fat to go until I reach my ugw of 115.
I hate myself.
I have to get this shit off of me.
Got new running shoes today. Gym tomorrw to get a new mmbership.
And vegan diet till halloween.
Wish me luck. I guess.
I’ll kill myself or starve myself to death if I’m not at least 120 before my birthday in feb.

I hate myself. I want to die. I’m so fat. i’ve been working out and look just as bad. On my period and bloated. Hate myself. Hate myself. Need to lose weight. Why can’t I be beautiful and perfect?

I just want to give up T-T

Feeling so fat and full today, had a week of normalcy to see how it goes,
And I feel like SHIT.
I just want to stop eating again.
I gained back five pounds! Five! Of twelve lost, but STILL!
When I go to market next I’m buying colon cleanse or laxatives or something!
No more “normal” because it doesn’t feel normal,
It feels gross!
Plain and simple, wish me luck to get back on track!
200 calorie a day goal, I will retain you once again!

i just want to fit into the clothes that come from japan and vietnam on Ebay, is that so much to ask for? T-T